Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Cheryl Haggard is one of the co-founders of the Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep organization. NILMDTS is the infant bereavement photography organization that provides professional portrait packages to families experiencing pregnancy loss. I have been involved with the organization for quite some time now but have only recently discovered her personal blog. She writes with such compassion and blatant honesty and I cannot help but post this as it describes how every bereaved mother feels about her pregnancy loss.
I am a survivor too...
Well, I stood there for a moment? Thought about her question. Then I opened my mouth. Yes, you heard me, I opened my mouth. I said, very politely, "I did die. My world was dark for such a long time. The person I was before my son does not exist anymore. Today, I stand before you, a new person, a stronger person, and a better mother. A person that can show empathy and compassion to a complete stranger." She looked at me, and I think she started to stutter out an apology. I stopped her and said "Please, no apology. You didn't say anything wrong, you said what you felt. Next time you meet a mother that has lost a child, and I am sure you will, just remember that a part of her did die. And that she is a survivor. A survivor of something there is no cure for, except that, of having her child back in her arms." Know what happened next?
She gave me a small hug, and whispered "Thank you..."
There is so much publicity about breast cancer awareness during the month of October, Pregnancy and Infant Loss gets swept under the rug. You all know what I mean and what I am saying. I want to scream at the top of my lungs "I AM A SURVIVOR!!!!" "MY BABY DIED, AND THERE IS NO CURE FOR THAT!!!" "WHAT ABOUT ME????" "WHERE IS MY AWARENESS, WHERE IS MY SUPPORT???" "HELLO, IS ANYBODY LISTENING?"
The Haggard Family: I am a survivor, too...
Monday, October 6, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Jason came home from work pretty late for a Saturday. Adin was anxiously awaiting their snuggle time and had his "Bible" all ready for Daddy to read. Jason read to him and of course Adin asked for several more stories. Jason, being exhausted from the week and day asked Adin to read to him instead. We love it when Adin "reads" to us, making up what he thinks the story is by what is going on in the picture. They went though several stories and then went back to Adam and Eve. Adin is full of questions at all time and even though he is "reading" he is asking a lot of 'Whys.'
Adin: Daddy why are they sad? (meaning Adam and Eve)
Jason: Because they did something they weren't supposed to do and God was punishing them for it. Like when you do something bad and Mommy and Daddy have to punish you.
Adin: Mm hmm. Why they did something bad?
(.... several questions and answers back and forth about Adam and Eve ....)
Jason: ... and it was bad that they did that and they should not have eaten it. (the apple)
Adin: Did it have corn syrup in it?
I lost it. I had been folding laundry in the living room hearing the whole conversation and story time.
We have recently eliminated corn syrup from the boys' diet and Adin assumes everything "bad" has corn syrup in it. How absolutely precious!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
The doctor said, "Well, mom, when do you want it out?"
"As soon as possible!"
"Well, let me go get a syringe!" and off he went!
Music Man was very upset about losing his button (he hates change!) But he did beautifully and after a few hours quit whining about not wanting it out. He hates the band-aid over it and picks at it constantly, but I am afraid he will pick at the hole if we take it off before it is completely healed. The hole inside his body is closed (it started closing immediately. We got back in a month to have him check it. We have kept a band-aid over it to keep him from messing with it and to catch whatever might leak out. It is healing beautifully! It is so strange to not see it under his clothes but so wonderful to bear hug him without worrying about the button!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
- Remembering Your Baby paperwork (for the 501 (c) 3 status) is almost done!
- We are starting a Bible Study next week! (Well, I am just the organizer, Jason will be teaching it!
- We are starting to get the hang of our new schedule! (But Adin starts soccer next week, so we'll see how that plays in on Monday!)
- I have a pre-teen(!) Ok that's not cool ... see previous post ... but it is still on my mind!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Height: 51 1/2" (40%)
Weight: 49 lbs (5%)
Those numbers look so ominous when written down. He is still on the same growth pattern he has always been on but I sure would like to figure out how to put a little weight on him!
Friday, August 15, 2008
Farm Boy still has a couple of more weeks before he starts back in Mother's Day Out. He is looking forward to starting his "school" again. Unfortunately, his two closest buddies are a few months older than him and started school this year. He will end up being one of the oldest in his classes (just like me, lol!) Farm Boy will begin soccer in a local church in another week or so. It is non-competitive and a lot of fun for the kids.
I started a blog for Remembering Your Baby on July 3, which was seven years since we lost Sammie. Please feel free to visit if you would like to see it.
Please pray with us as we consider the next chapter in our life. We are aching to get back into ministry after three years of soaking. We know our heart's desire but want to be absolutely sure it is what God wants and not just what we want. Details will be forth-coming as soon as we know what we are going to do.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Well, school is over and summer is in full swing. We have attended three VBS programs at three churches, two themed Outback Island and one was Cowboy Canyon. This week the boys have another one called Power Lab. They have loved both programs and were kind of bummed that there was no VBS to attend last week.
This week and next they are attending Swim Camp, which is an eight-day swimming lessons program (M-Th for two weeks.)
Music Man has completed the second grade. He is gearing up for third grade at Hernando Hills Elementary School at the same school he attended second grade. He will have a new teacher who does a modified curriculum. We have an Assisted Technology consultation next month to evaluate his needs in the way of testing and doing his assignment. Because writing is difficult for him, it takes an incredibly long time for him to complete written assignments and tests. We are looking at computer system to help him do his assignments on. Music Man has been doing well physically speaking for quite some time. He did have two episodes in November and we saw his specialist. Assuming that he was refluxing we made some modifications and have not had any episodes since then. Unfortunately, since that means he could be refluxing again, we need to have a barium swallow study done and rule it out (or in.) If he is refluxing again, it could mean we have to have his nissen fundoplication redone and the GTube will have to stay in place.
Farm Boy will be back in Mother's Day Out next year again with the same teacher at the same school. Most of his buddies are going to kindergarten, so he will be one of, if not THE, oldest in his class. He loves his teacher and enjoys the program. His teacher actually writes her own curriculum and works with the kids rather than just supervises them for six hours. They also get to go to the gym and have recess, both of which he loves.
That's all for now. I'm still trying to get used to blogging. :)
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Well, it's May. Spring in Mississippi brought lots and rain. The Mississippi has overflowed her banks with no signs of receding. I am awesomely amazed at the amount of water that has dropped from the sky this spring. It is reminiscent of the flood of '94. I was at GSU and though we got rain there, it was nothing like what my hometown of Albany, GA received. That is what we are experiencing now. I've taken some pictures of the River and will share them in a different post.
School is drawing to an end. Music Man is gearing up for third grade. I am very ready for this school year to end. This is the first year I have not enjoyed as far as school is concerned and I don't feel he made as much progress as he could have. I'll leave it at that and just say that I am ready for second grade to draw to a close. :)
Music Man has been playing tee ball on Tuesday nights at the Field of Dreams. It is an incredible all-inclusive ball program that allows all children (and young adults) to play. He is truly in his element here and enjoyed every minute of it.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
We have about six weeks left of school for this year (OH MY!!) Summer will be here before we know it and that means I will have a THIRD Grader!! (OH MY, OH MY!!) We are gearing up for an end-of-the year IEP and tee ball! (More details forthcoming!)
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
My last post was right after school started so I will go back to there, catch you guys up and attempt to make this a more regular thing, which was why I started it in the first place. :)
Music Man is in the second grade at Hernando Hills Elementary School. We have four elementary schools in Hernando, each now housing two grades. He is in a regular classroom for homeroom, activity (computer, PE, art, music, library,) lunch and recess. He gets all of his academics however in the sped classroom. He gets a lot of one-on-one attention there but is expected to do his own work. His teachers are wonderful and he is getting his therapies at school. His favorite class is PE although he loves working on his Edmark program in reading. A lot (if not all) of his testing is done orally as he still has a hard time with penmanship and writing and it takes him a very long time to complete an assignment.
Farm Boy is still attending Hernando Baptist's Mother's Day Out program. He goes on Tuesdays and Thursday for a full day and loves it. He's learning a lot and loves to do his "homework" when Music Man is working on his. They each have a few friends that they are close to and we recently had some new neighbors move across the street from us, who are exactly the same age as Music Man and Farm Boy.
Over the weekend, we took the boys and Bella to a state park we had never been to. We hiked 2.5 miles around a lake and had a great afternoon. Everyone was of course exhausted afterwards, but it was a beautiful false-spring day (its 33F as I type this!!!)
I am also working through some paperwork for Remembering Your Baby, trying to get us up and running as an official non-profit organization. The laws in Mississippi are so different from those in GA and FL, I suppose from the not-so-nice non-profits that sprung up after Hurricane Katrina. Anyway, I took a break from that over the holidays and now we are getting started again.
I think I will allow this post to "just be." I'll add another one today updating the past few months, hopefully with pictures .... my camera cords are MIA and I have a lot of pictures I need to get off of it .... we'll see.